I haven’t blogged in a long time!!  Let’s see…I could blame it on the CRAZINESS of life lately, our recent stressful move, the start of my new job, the settling of my kids into their new school, or simply the fact that I’m just mentally, physically, and spiritually tired from the twists and turns of the past few months.  It’s certainly been anything but boring these days…

Daydreams of tropical vacations have been filling my mind lately…

Okay, sorry.  I’m back. 😉

But more than all of THAT, I’m embarrassed to say that I think I’ve been sort of “on strike” with God. Whoa!  You didn’t see that coming, did you!  (AND yes…it sounds just as ridiculous when I say it in my head as when I type it!!) I haven’t even wanted to blog about His goodness, because up until recently, I’d been feeling like He’d let me down.  When things DIDN’T work out the way I had prayed that they would a month ago…without realizing it, my heart became mad at God.  My “demands” were not met, and I became disappointed, hurt, frustrated, and thus angry at Him (kind of like a spoiled toddler one might say!).

Now, before you worry about me…I’m fine.  I also want to assure you that the strike is over.  The only “union” needed was His heart and mine.  Clever, huh?  😉

God has this loving way of making you see things HIS way…and now I seem to be reaping the benefits of HIS win. 😉   He’s just loving like that!!  Why do I ever doubt Him?!

But I had forgotten how much He loves me.  In the midst of the move and all the chaos surrounding, I’d let my guard down against the enemy…the one who’s goal is to separate me from God’s love.  Although I felt like God was letting me down, I was actually the one who was letting HIM down.

So back to my original thought about why I haven’t blogged…who wants to read a blog written by a pouty toddler gone on strike?!?”  Certainly not me, that’s for sure! 🙂   I can laugh at this now…but I’m only sharing this because maybe some of you have been there too, and can relate?  It’s okay.  God’s BIG and He can handle it…but you should know…He loves you more than you realize…and He’s going to love you anyway. 🙂

So what now, you ask?  Well, I am embracing the “new” of this next chapter of our lives.  I was fighting it before, but now I’m realizing that it’s leading us exactly down the road He wants us on.  It’s different…but it’s good.  I have no idea what’s around the bend, but I’m now excited for it.  God has been encouraging us to dream big and expect Him to come soon, so I’m beginning to see that God wants us to walk by faith.  I’m learning about believing when I can’t SEE.  I’m learning how to lean into Him and to trust Him no matter what is going on around me. It’s a growing season…and I have a feeling that one day I am going to look back on this time in my life and see exactly WHY I had to go through it. I think that walking this road is essential if I want to get to where He’s taking me in the future.  Does that even make sense?

“New” is not bad.  In fact, when God is driving, it’s going to be really, really GOOD!

“This is what God says, the God who builds a road right through the ocean, who carves a path through pounding waves, The God who summons horses and chariots and armies- they lie down and then can’t get up; they’re snuffed out like so many candles;  Forget about what’s happened; don’t keep going over old history.  Be alert, be present.  I’m about to do something BRAND NEW.  It’s bursting out!  Don’t you see it?  There it is!  I’m making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands…”

Happy “new” day!

P.S.  Maybe one day, I’ll be reading this blog while on a tropical vacation… 😉  How cool would THAT be?! Ha! Ha!