I am SO excited to share with you about a miracle I received several weeks ago from the Lord! I wrote down my story in an email and shared it with the pastors at my church. Here it is:

Dear Rock Church,

About six months ago, I started experiencing a painful area in my right breast, and as a woman, felt scared that it could be breast cancer.   Your mind just goes right to the worst scenarios and fear has a way of showing up uninvited right then and there.  I’d been praying for it to heal up, taking God’s word, standing on His promises and daily fighting fear.  But I knew the battle was on.

A little over a week ago I decided to go get a mammogram and the results came back that they had found something and wanted me to come in for further imaging.  I was at work when I got the results and I felt just paralyzed with fear.  I received the call from Kaiser to schedule my imaging appointment for a week later (yesterday), so I had a LONG week of waiting, stress sleep, and praying and fighting and standing on God’s promises.  I have this journal that I write down all my favorite verses in so that in the mornings, I declare them over my life.  Suddenly, the ones on God giving me a long life, a great future, healing, strength, and my enemies being destroyed were suddenly clung to quite a bit more!!  I would feel so full of faith, yet an hour later the fear would creep in and I’d have to say the verses again.  It’s no wonder the Bible calls the word a sword…because it felt like a daily…no, hourly, battle.

You know, it’s funny how God prepares us for things like this.  A few weeks prior to this, I had a dream that I was standing next to a flat screen tv and I was telling someone in the room why I wasn’t afraid of it falling over.  I said “I trust the anchor to hold” (meaning the anchor in the wall) but I woke up thinking, “Jesus…YOU are my anchor.  Do I trust you like I should?”  So began my journey of trust…not knowing how real it was going to get.  Honestly, it also got me changing my thoughts to Jesus’ love for me.  I’d try to just imagine Him holding me.  His perfect love casts out fear and I just wanted to press into His love for me.  Looking back at that dream now, I wonder if that “flat screen” represented my “screening” for breast cancer.  Just a thought.

Saturday night I had another dream about a huge, fat rainbow in the dark night sky and I was rushing out to see this “sign and wonder” in the sky!  I woke up thinking, “God’s promises to me in this dark storm are like rainbows in the dark night sky.”  Then at church, Pastor Zach spoke about “Signs and Wonders”!!  So cool!  But the best part about that Sunday morning was when Pastor Zach had an alter call for those who were hoping and believing for a miracle, but were afraid to believe for it because in the past their miracle didn’t happen (that was ME…as I struggle with believing for God to do a miracle for ME since our first born died in 2005).  Even my husband looked at me with eyes that said, “He’s talking about you.  You better get up there).   I was already planning my route to the front! 🙂

I practically ran up there…I was a little nervous to be the FIRST one up…but thankfully Pastor Jen was there to give me her sweet and reassuring smile, and others eventually came up too…phew! 🙂  I received prayer and an encouraging word from Jen during that time too (thank you Jen!!).  It was Joshua 1:8 about holding on to God’s promises in his word, being strong and courageous and that God would be with me.  How like God to give me encouragement and confirmation once again!!  Talk about a God set up on Sunday morning!  He’s so good!  Thank you Rock Pastors for being so open to hearing from the Lord.  Zach, you mentioned that you had to put this sermon together quick…but it was God’s word to me…how cool of God!!  

Yesterday morning, I went on a run and the song came on by Mercy Me called “Best News Ever” and I felt like God said I’m going to get great news! I clung to that too!

I then went to my Kaiser imaging appointment just CLINGING to God’s promises, and it was the biggest battle to keep my mind on Jesus.  I had three new images taken, and they don’t tell you anything when you’re there.  Then I had to wait 25 minutes (felt like 6 hours) until another nurse came and said they wanted to do an ultrasound!  I was saying things in my head to the sound of “Fear not. Be courageous…” Before she came to get me, I told my mom (who went with me to the appointment,) “Someone is going to tell me that there’s great news!”  I don’t’ know if I said that out of hope or just clinging to the song about best news ever, but I said it.  

The ultrasound technician did a thorough exam and said, “Well, we’re not seeing what we saw on the first image.  Everything looks great and normal!”  Then she said, “I will get the doctor to take a look as well, but I’ll let her give you THE GREAT NEWS!”   She said it!  She actually said that!!!  The doctor also came in to do an ultrasound and said everything looked healthy and normal and that all they saw was just dense breast tissue…nothing more!  The best news ever!

When I got to the waiting room with my mom, and the nurse left, I BURST into thankful, grateful, humbled, messy, loud, and sobby tears!!  “God… oh how YOU love me!  You gave me a miracle and I am forever changed.”   I am OVERWHELMED by His love.  Nothing else matters.  It’s all HIM and to HIM be the glory.   All I did was cling to His promises. I’ve never felt so full of faith and joy…I even started talking about Jesus to the lady at the gas station on the way home!  Ha! Ha!

Thank you, again, Rock Pastors and family for your prayers, and encouragement.  I just couldn’t help but share my testimony with you! 

                                                Tami Pearson